Diary of a Young Man – Part 13

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March 18 Th 2003

An eagerness to witness a miracle speeds up and the heart screams again. Most of the times in your life you are unaware of the terms you share with people around you are not sure about the positives they look in you and then the negatives they hate in you.

I don’t know why we tends to look life that way. Is it all depends on what people think about you and not about how you actually are?

Last 10 days!

All the last days, I just counted on the things I left, honestly about the things those left me alone. It’s really amazing and terrifying as how people leave you alone in suck a strange way. The buddies who stepped with you and moved over all of your nerves, the buddies who means something for you leaves you alone at such critical point.

I’ve always been scared about being lonely and then the fears have always been raised at time I was to face those moments. At Every corner I’ve found same strangest of my own parts and of my soul when the heart says to quit, mind rules and dictates to move forwards. When the mind says to quit, heart rules and dictates success. That’s how I never actually quit and the body even after suffering a lot knows the only slogan “Never Back Down”.

I’ve found many strangers inside me and it’s really magical as I never knew that my single frame hides so many souls. Each stranger is unique and their imbibed nature is the proof of their individuality.

“Take to the extent” is all that keeps running in me…

These two brown eyes shed tears, they cry hard and they expect but whatever may be the case they know how to survive. One everlasting attitude of a warrior and a fighter who never shows its real strength until there is an urgent call. Sometimes you just need someone to talk to though; you want to share the burdens and heaviness you’ve been carrying for so long. But during most of those times you are still afraid that what that person might think of you until you touch their heart or they touch yours.

Rarely does it happen that words can pierce your heart, because your heart never acts as one transparent sheet but as storage, the black hole.

I am not sleeping child I am awake; I know how the heart beats and how it cries after laughing for years.

Your desires seem to have been protracted and there is where you are really afraid. The warrior inside don’t know how to fight for the first time. He is unable to control his frame, the troubling desire extends its limits and they want him to get in right away. They want him to touch the extreme, jump into the depth to touch the core. The fighter quits for the first time and he is affected by the extended desires.

He no longer knows how to hold and control, his soul screams to stop but the body and the frame pulls him up again.

 

 

 

 

 

Diary of a Young Man – Part 12

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March 17 Th 2003

“I am not an idiot; I know how the world works”

The night seems to have passed away but still the bit of sleep left in my eyes brings the dreams back. These dreams are special not just because I dreamt them last night but because they brought all that was lost and that is lost.

The intermediate phase of a day brings such control that sometimes I’ am suspicious about my mind. It has extraordinary capabilities to do miracles by restricting its own moves.

I don’t know how many could have felt the same but this thing is the one different thing I ever felt. Such need and desire to go on and dive into the depth then moving up to the curves at times brings you all you could have desired to be happy.

With every breath when you can smell the perfumes you are sure that you are getting involved and as soon as it happens you know that you can’t fall back now.

As you move closer to the destiny, you can feel its breath and it seems like you are moving towards her. With her every breath you can hear the heart promising. You don’t know what to do. All the cerebral activities are seized and you are a prisoner now who loves to be in prison and is unaware of the outer world.

You look into the eyes which have unlimited powers of attracting. The story doesn’t end here you move ahead and the cutest peck gives all the lost desires back and it rules you at the same moment so that you can move ahead. But every move adds to the fear and it makes you nervous, you are ready to go ahead but you can’t because you know that it can foil every emotion.

That’s how it is complicated and instead of all your willing you don’t move ahead. You can hear the movements and the desire to go deep on the other end too. But you know what should be done.

 

 

Diary of a Young Man – Part 10

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March 15 Th 2003

The excitement ends with some usual foul sentences. Sometimes I really wonder as why everything goes smooth for a while and then at sudden it rends to move roughly and you are struck by the disaster.

Is that what we call life?

If it’s real then I don’t think its better in any way because even if I expect and even accept the up’s and down’s wont agreed that we are often allowed with calm and composed lifestyle. We are not at all allowed with it because very often life seems to be smooth and when it goes smooth you are always interrupted by misfortunes in a short course.

Does life ends here?

I am unable to answer…

I lack words because I’ve no idea what life is. All the proverbs seem to lack the truth because it does not go as they suggests.

 

 

Diary of a Young Man – Part 9

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March 14 Th 2003

The excitement of getting something unexpected but still hoped to achieve is real amazing. You can bet that nothing else would give you such an excitement and that too when added by all other small moments of togetherness raises all the low levels to an extremity of merriment.

You can wait to fly because you are alive. You can wait to swim because you may feel like doing it. It’s just that moment that brings everything to you and you are really happy after that. When you sit beside each other and when you hold each other’s hand, all gives you the terms of support and an everlasting feel of care.

 

 

Diary of a Young Man – Part 7

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March 10 Th 2003

A long term of waiting seems tough again. It was not the same as things goes now, the wonderful feel still penetrated my inner core but even then it was a comfortable ambiance that helped my feelings to flourish that have worsen to trouble me now.

With every tick of clock the emotions are flourishing and the abundance of them indicates the control developed on myself.

I am helpless or addicted is still an answer to be determined and the quest still doesn’t seem to end soon. I am afraid of that long course where I won’t be able to witness such happy moments where life will turn to its profession and where I’ll have to make a new start.

I am really afraid of all those lonely moments where I’ll have to wait for every single thing. And with these moments when I’ll miss certain things and certain people will not hold anymore and the tears would say all after that.

Some really makes to your heart and the strong bond does supports you in the end but the support are always accompanied by a bit of restriction and dependence when you start facing the world alone.

Diary of a Young Man – Part 6

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March 9 Th 2003

A special feeling is the one that is unique and rare to witness. Just with a smile when you step up and face the realities of world, I am sure you can start with one of those special feelings.

The touchy breeze and the beautiful smell arouses all lost senses of affection and then when they makes sure about presence you are ready for having a blast and to feel all.

A long ride and that too with someone you trust and care a lot makes you a better self and provides a way to regain all lost faith. Now you grow confident that all your dreams may come true…

Sometimes you think about certain things but when they really find a real existence you can’t control your emotions and then all goes beyond the curbing power of one’s soul.

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